"The Fly Cannot Know My Heart": An Interview with Erin Keane

Erin Keane is the author of The Gravity Soundtrack and Death-Defying Acts, a novel-in-poems about circus life. She lives in Louisville, Kentucky, working as a public radio arts reporter and critic and writing strange plays about, among other things, opossums and girls.

Her poem "The Living Dead" appears in Issue Forty-One of The Collagist.

Here, Erin Keane talks with interviewer Elizabeth Deanna Morris about zombies, dads, and zombies. 

1. Could you please talk about the genesis of “Living Dead”?

Not all of my poems begin with facts, but this one does. My boyfriend (now husband) and I did go to Pittsburgh for a long weekend, just for fun. He’s a big horror film fan, and he did drive us outside the city to the cemetery where George Romero filmed the opening scene of “Night of the Living Dead.” (I’ve seen that opening scene maybe half a dozen times, though I’ve never managed to watch the whole movie. For me, it’s all in that first scene: the brother and sister visiting their dad’s grave when everything goes horribly wrong.) My father died when I was five. I didn’t go to his funeral (we were living across the country when he died) and here I am, decades later, and I still haven’t visited his grave. There’s some guilt there, definitely. But I suppose I’m afraid of what could happen. Not a zombie attack, you know, but something.  

2. This poem focuses a lot on the image/concept of zombies.  Where do you see this poem fitting in zombie culture, which is very popular right now? More broadly, where do you see zombies’ place in poetry?

Right. Well, there’s a lot of truth to the idea that if you want to know what a culture fears most in a particular time and place, look to their fictional monsters. In a broad cultural sense, zombies represent the fear of unchecked global pandemic alongside the nagging anxiety that everything we work to build in our lives—career, home, family, savings—can be rendered meaningless by one accident that spirals out of control until we are forced back into our primal selves, the self that has to wield an axe without flinching or be left for dead. But yet it’s so appealing, I think, because there is the undeniable fantasy aspect of being allowed—encouraged—to bury something sharp in the skull of a person (who is not really a person anymore, so it’s okay). And then there’s the unnatural aspect of it all, the complete disintegration of the very core of our truth as living beings—that when we die, our bodies stay dead—which can be a way of repudiating some basics of science and faith all in one really gross package.

And man, people love the zombie fantasy. The meme for a while was the “zombie contingency plan” — do you have a plan, where would you go, what would you do? Which strikes me as a way to talk about general disaster contingency as a way to alleviate anxiety without having to actually plan for disasters, because I bet nobody sitting around dreaming up their zombie contingency plan even knows where the batteries to their flashlights are. The sirens go off and we sit around on Twitter and make jokes until the all clear is issued.

All of this is to say, I’m not sure this poem fits tidily into zombie culture. I watch “The Walking Dead” but I only care about the relationships between the survivors and how they live on the edge of constant death and find a way to either remain tender or brutal to one another (both choices fascinate me equally). For me, the zombie father was almost too easy of a metaphor—what’s dead is never dead, to cannibalize a saying from another  cable show. The old man keeps popping up—in my thoughts when I’m on vacation with my boyfriend, touring a zombie movie landmark, for example.

3. I feel like this poem has two pretty distinct turns. The first “they wanted to visit their father's / grave. I confess: I have never visited mine” and the second “What do you do / with a drunken sailor, so earl-aye in the morning? / Take him to Pittsburgh, let him meet / my love.”  Both times, the speaker shifts from a sort of silly, movie-referencing tone to a more serious and person one. How did you balance these two voices in this poem?

I blame the Irish in me. My whole family has a really dark sense of humor and it’s impossible to write like myself and not have it creep in. Growing up, death and gore and trauma (battlefields, hospitals) were just regular dinner table talk in my house, and you can either wilt under the weight of tragedy or you can give it the finger. It’s just second nature to my voice, not something I consciously craft.

4. Have you read anything that’s kept you warm this winter?

What I loved this winter: Carol Rifka Brunt’s “Tell the Wolves I’m Home.” Tears streaming down my face as I finished it, hand to God. I just brought home from Boston Amanda Smeltz’s “Imperial Bender” and Chris Mattingly’s “Scuffletown” and they haven’t left my nightstand. I’ve been entranced by Marcus Wicker’s “Maybe the Saddest Thing” (Flavor Flav is a 21st century muse) and knocked out cold by Frank Bill’s “Donnybrook.” And if you don’t know Jonathan Weinert’s poems, his new chapbook “13 Small Apostrophes” should throw you right into the fire. 

5. What other writing can we look forward to from you?

My next collection of poems comes out in February from Typecast Publishing. “The Living Dead” will make an appearance along with more mixed-up love poems masquerading as elegies and vice versa. I’m also working on a play about Phil Collins. It’s a long story.

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"I Can Feel Them, But They Don't Know I'm There": An Interview with Emma Smith-Stevens

Emma Smith-Stevens' stories have appeared in ConjunctionsPANKWeb Conjunctions, and elsewhere. She lives in Gainesville, Florida.

Her story "Mercy" appears in Issue Twenty-Eight of The Collagist.

Here, Emma Smith-Stevens talks to interviewer Joseph Scapellato about "tracking" characters, unspeakable need, and endings that deepen.

1. Can you tell us about the origin of “Mercy”?  Where did this piece begin for you, and how did it get to here?

I wanted to write a story that captures the feeling of simultaneous revulsion and attraction, the experience of flinching in the face of intimacy. I started with Nina’s voice and a few images: Sergei’s bedroom with the kinky modifications, Nina’s forced smile for the group photo, a dead deer bloodying a snow bank. For me, writing fiction involves crawling under my characters’ skin, connecting with them through empathy, and then sneaking away. It’s sort of like when scientists tag wild animals with tracking chips. My characters carry on with their lives, but I maintain that connection—I can feel them, but they don’t know that I’m there.

2. I love this story’s honest exploration of intimacy’s liberating and oppressive aspects.  Nina tells us that Sergei’s “warmer, spongier qualities” are scaring her off, that he “modified his apartment for me with hooks in the ceiling and the floor, ropes bought at Home Depot, an attempt to meet my fetishes halfway.”  To her, even Sergei’s native language, Ukrainian, is intolerably intimate, sounding “nonsensical and made-up, as though invented by identical twins.”  At what stage do you discover the ideas that your fiction is engaging?  And what do you do then?

The ideas in this story presented themselves first, and led me to these characters. The dynamic between Nina and Sergei gives life to ideas about intimacy, fear, sexual attraction, and control, and all of that is the natural result of these two people coming together.

Everyone wants to be desired, but no one wants to be desired too much. “Mercy” is a love story, but with romance in the background, and discomfort up front. Sergei and Nina crave each other intensely, but each of them wants what the other wishes to withhold. Some would assume that a relationship involving power struggles is doomed, but in the case of these two, it is exactly right. Their disturbances are compelling to one another. Nina needs to fear Sergei in order to respect him, and in the end his actions make that possible. Sergei needs Nina to express her longing for him, and that is what he ultimately earns. There is unspeakable need, for both of them, to be together.

3. The ending of “Mercy” is powerful.  In the second-to-last paragraph, Nina thinks, “I will let him inside,” and the reader, who’s been pulling for this couple, rejoices—but the story pushes past this patch of hope: while driving, Nina and Sergei see two women stranded on the side of the road.  Although Sergei wants to stop and help, Nina persuades him—in a striking way—to keep driving, to abandon the women “in the midst of their struggle.”  This action, and the image that results, resonate.  As a writer, how do you find your endings?  What do you look for?

This story had three different endings over about six months before I finally landed on this one. I had to take time away from it in order find the image that would best express what I wanted to say about Nina and Sergei. I suppose that I often try to end that way—a sort of freeze-frame image that, hopefully, deepens the readers’ understanding of all that came before, and what will come next.

Some of my favorite story endings depict a beautiful moment with a very short lifespan. The past and the future are bearing down. As a reader you just want to hold on, but you also know it’s time to go, to get out before the whole house comes crashing down. Those endings gave me inspiration while finishing “Mercy.” 

4. What other writing projects are you working on right now?

I’m writing a novel.

5. What great books have you read recently? Are there any upcoming releases you're excited about?

Until recently I’d only read a handful of Nabokov’s short stories, so I’m making my way through those, which is exciting. One of the best books I’ve read in the last few months was Chess Story by Stefan Zweig. I absolutely loved Michael Kimball’s Big Ray and Padgett Powell’s You and Me. Next on my list are Susan Steinberg’s Spectacle and Rivka Galchen’s Atmospheric Disturbances both of which I couldn’t be more excited about.

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